To make sense of part of my psyche I'm looking at careers I'm jealous of - to work out a) what I'm motivated to work for and b) to make sense of what I think I am
Professional Jobs:
Lawyer - I hate the fact that I have the kind of annoying analytical and argumentative brain as lawyers do - and I also like a fight and am interested in psychological manipulation and persuasion. I can understand the law easily and get the principles - sometimes of even complicated law. I am aware of quite a lot of it already and feel frustrated that no-one really noticed that about me (apart from girlfriends who hated the fact I could always argue and win even when I was wrong)I would like the good pay and the 'righting wrongs' aspect - it would fit well with my sense of injustice
People who are in charge of people. I'm fucking good at this - when I manage people I do it really well yet I haven't been in a job where I manage people for a long time (at least not formally - I do counsel monitor progress of and encourage the development of postgrads at the moment). Instead I keep working for people that are terrible at it.
Writers and Opinion/Polemic Journalists I can't see how they get into it, but I can see how I can write like them grrr. And POETS I see nice middle class girls studying creative writing MAs and hoping to become a poet because 'her brother does it for a living' how the hell does that work? And how come middle class wealthy people can have parents who are poets and they still ive in big houses?? How???!
Models, Actors, etc I know I have the presence, accent skills and sometimes the line-learning ability, but how the hell do actors survive if they are not working all the time?? I just couldn't do it, yet somehow some of them manage to do it and get paid well!?!