This is a bad page and its probably going to get me into trouble but I really have a thing for Ann Dixon. She is an academic who came to work at Warwick who I quicly got on with and immeidately started to fancy a bit - and still do about 2 years later. She's one of those people that so often I think 'god how lucky I am to have met her' but sometimes when we are together or I go out drinking with her and Mark, her husband, I some home so horny and can't stop thinking about her in bed with me.. and I do mean really vividly. She just strikes me as someone who would be so much fun to go to bed with and sometimes I ust look at her and think ' I really really want to lick your pussy, and I do I really, really want to get my head between her legs and see her get all horny and .. oh I'm doing it again its terrible.  I was on the bus with her after a couple of us went for a drink after work and we were talking about sex and she was saying that Mark didn't have sex with her during her period and that they hadn't had anal sex.  It was driving me crazy!  I nearly told her how amazing I thought she was and had done for ages and how all I could think of was 'how do I get someone as great as Ann in my life' since I met her.   I think I may have given her the distinct impression that a) I would love to make love to her on her period and b) that if she was with me I would certainly have sex with her a) more than once a week and b) in her ass.  Since then I have been also obsessed with licking her ass and more so  with the idea of her fingering mine (I sort  of confessed to liking anal stuff on me .. at least that is what I was trying desperately not to say when she said 'oh my god you like anal!' really loud... Man she really is making me want to go to bed with her..  but its the usual story she is in a relationship and I have too many scruples!     I really go so close to telling her. When we went out when Mark was on his brother's stag do it was the same - I was thinking so much about fucking her afterwards - I masturbated the next day for at least half the day - its so so bad that i have so much desire for her and can't get any outlet for it!  The worst thing about it is that I can't help thinking that if she went to bed with me she would absolutely love it too and I'm not sure where I sit with that - If she were a friend of mine and she said 'should I have sex with him' I would say 'yes yes yes just don't let it affect your relationship with Marc' because they have so much history together - but I can't help also thinking a) that I would actually love to spend my life with Ann and b) that it might affect their life together.  Sometimes I also think about Ann having two husbands or a husband and me as boyfriend in a three way relationship - it happens and people who do it like it and I would love it.  Its bad to like someone this much isn't it?!

17/07/09

This is still going on you know - I have the dirtiest fantasies about this woman - recently her and m have been trying for a baby and IVF has failed - goddamit that makes it worse - I want to make her pregnant so much .. with PLENTY of cum in her .. and over her if possible... oh dear oh dear!